Chapter XXIV
第二十四章
ISS BINGLEY’S letter arrived, and put an end to doubt. The very first sentence conveyed the assurance of their being all settled in London for the winter, and concluded with her brother’s regret at no…
ISS BINGLEY’S letter arrived, and put an end to doubt. The very first
sentence conveyed the assurance of their being all settled in London for
the winter, and concluded with her brother’s regret at not having had
time to pay his respects to his friends in Hertfordshire before he left
the country.
Hope was over, entirely over; and when Jane could attend to the rest of the letter, she found little, except the professed affection of the writer, that could give her any comfort. Miss Darcy’s praise occupied the chief of it. Her many attractions were again dwelt on; and Caroline boasted joyfully of their increasing intimacy, and ventured to predict the accomplishment of the wishes which had been unfolded in her former letter. She wrote also with great pleasure of her brother’s being an inmate of Mr. Darcy’s house, and mentioned with raptures some plans of the latter with regard to new furniture.
Elizabeth, to whom Jane very soon communicated the chief of all this, heard it in silent indignation. Her heart was divided between concern for her sister and resentment against all others. To Caroline’s assertion of her brother’s being partial to Miss Darcy, she paid no credit. That he was really fond of Jane, she doubted no more than she had ever done; and much as she had always been disposed to like him, she could not think without anger, hardly without contempt, on that easiness of temper, that want of proper resolution, which now made him the slave of his designing friends, and led him to sacrifice his own happiness to the caprice of their inclinations. Had his own happiness, however, been the only sacrifice, he might have been allowed to sport with it in whatever manner he thought best; but her sister’s was involved in it, as she thought he must be sensible himself. It was a subject, in short, on which reflection would be long indulged, and must be unavailing. She could think of nothing else; and yet, whether Bingley’s regard had really died away, or were suppressed by his friends’ interference; whether he had been aware of Jane’s attachment, or whether it had escaped his observation; whichever were the case, though her opinion of him must be materially affected by the difference, her sister’s situation remained the same, her peace equally wounded.
A day or two passed before Jane had courage to speak of her feelings to Elizabeth; but at last, on Mrs. Bennet’s leaving them together, after a longer irritation than usual about Netherfield and its master, she could not help saying,—
“O that my dear mother had more command over herself! she can have no idea of the pain she gives me by her continual reflections on him. But I will not repine. It cannot last long. He will be forgot, and we shall all be as we were before.”
Elizabeth looked at her sister with incredulous solicitude, but said nothing.
“You doubt me,” cried Jane, slightly colouring; “indeed, you have no reason. He may live in my memory as the most amiable man of my acquaintance but that is all. I have nothing either to hope or fear, and nothing to reproach him with. Thank God I have not that pain. A little time, therefore—I shall certainly try to get the better——”
With a stronger voice she soon added, “I have this comfort immediately, that it has not been more than an error of fancy on my side, and that it has done no harm to anyone but myself.”
“My dear Jane,” exclaimed Elizabeth, “you are too good. Your sweetness and disinterestedness are really angelic; I do not know what to say to you. I feel as if I had never done you justice, or loved you as you deserve.”
Miss Bennet eagerly disclaimed all extraordinary merit, and threw back the praise on her sister’s warm affection.
“Nay,” said Elizabeth, “this is not fair. You wish to think all the world respectable, and are hurt if I speak ill of anybody. I only want to think you perfect, and you set yourself against it. Do not be afraid of my running into any excess, of my encroaching on your privilege of universal good-will. You need not. There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think well. The more I see of the world the more am I dissatisfied with it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of either merit or sense. I have met with two instances lately: one I will not mention, the other is Charlotte’s marriage. It is unaccountable! in every view it is unaccountable!”
“My dear Lizzy, do not give way to such feelings as these. They will ruin your happiness. You do not make allowance enough for difference of situation and temper. Consider Mr. Collins’s respectability, and Charlotte’s prudent, steady character. Remember that she is one of a large family; that as to fortune it is a most eligible match; and be ready to believe, for everybody’s sake, that she may feel something like regard and esteem for our cousin.”
“To oblige you, I would try to believe almost anything, but no one else could be benefited by such a belief as this; for were I persuaded that Charlotte had any regard for him, I should only think worse of her understanding than I now do of her heart. My dear Jane, Mr. Collins is a conceited, pompous, narrow-minded, silly man: you know he is, as well as I do; and you must feel, as well as I do, that the woman who marries him cannot have a proper way of thinking. You shall not defend her, though it is Charlotte Lucas. You shall not, for the sake of one individual, change the meaning of principle and integrity, nor endeavour to persuade yourself or me, that selfishness is prudence, and insensibility of danger security for happiness.”
“I must think your language too strong in speaking of both,” replied Jane; “and I hope you will be convinced of it, by seeing them happy together. But enough of this. You alluded to something else. You mentioned two instances. I cannot misunderstand you, but I entreat you, dear Lizzy, not to pain me by thinking that person to blame, and saying your opinion of him is sunk. We must not be so ready to fancy ourselves intentionally injured. We must not expect a lively young man to be always so guarded and circumspect. It is very often nothing but our own vanity that deceives us. Women fancy admiration means more than it does.”
“And men take care that they should.”
“If it is designedly done, they cannot be justified; but I have no idea of there being so much design in the world as some persons imagine.”
“I am far from attributing any part of Mr. Bingley’s conduct to design,” said Elizabeth; “but, without scheming to do wrong, or to make others unhappy, there may be error and there may be misery. Thoughtlessness, want of attention to other people’s feelings, and want of resolution, will do the business.”
“And do you impute it to either of those?”
“Yes; to the last. But if I go on I shall displease you by saying what I think of persons you esteem. Stop me, whilst you can.”
“You persist, then, in supposing his sisters influence him?”
“Yes, in conjunction with his friend.”
“I cannot believe it. Why should they try to influence him? They can only wish his happiness; and if he is attached to me no other woman can secure it.”
“Your first position is false. They may wish many things besides his happiness: they may wish his increase of wealth and consequence; they may wish him to marry a girl who has all the importance of money, great connections, and pride.”
“Beyond a doubt they do wish him to choose Miss Darcy,” replied Jane; “but this may be from better feelings than you are supposing. They have known her much longer than they have known me; no wonder if they love her better. But, whatever may be their own wishes, it is very unlikely they should have opposed their brother’s. What sister would think herself at liberty to do it, unless there were something very objectionable? If they believed him attached to me they would not try to part us; if he were so, they could not succeed. By supposing such an affection, you make everybody acting unnaturally and wrong, and me most unhappy. Do not distress me by the idea. I am not ashamed of having been mistaken—or, at least, it is slight, it is nothing in comparison of what I should feel in thinking ill of him or his sisters. Let me take it in the best light, in the light in which it may be understood.”
Elizabeth could not oppose such a wish; and from this time Mr. Bingley’s name was scarcely ever mentioned between them.
Mrs. Bennet still continued to wonder and repine at his returning no more; and though a day seldom passed in which Elizabeth did not account for it clearly, there seemed little chance of her ever considering it with less perplexity. Her daughter endeavoured to convince her of what she did not believe herself, that his attentions to Jane had been merely the effect of a common and transient liking, which ceased when he saw her no more; but though the probability of the statement was admitted at the time, she had the same story to repeat every day. Mrs. Bennet’s best comfort was, that Mr. Bingley must be down again in the summer.
Mr. Bennet treated the matter differently. “So, Lizzy,” said he, one day, “your sister is crossed in love, I find. I congratulate her. Next to being married, a girl likes to be crossed in love a little now and then. It is something to think of, and gives her a sort of distinction among her companions. When is your turn to come? You will hardly bear to be long outdone by Jane. Now is your time. Here are officers enough at Meryton to disappoint all the young ladies in the country. Let Wickham be your man. He is a pleasant fellow, and would jilt you creditably.”
“Thank you, sir, but a less agreeable man would satisfy me. We must not all expect Jane’s good fortune.”
“True,” said Mr. Bennet; “but it is a comfort to think that, whatever of that kind may befall you, you have an affectionate mother who will always make the most of it.”
Mr. Wickham’s society was of material service in dispelling the gloom which the late perverse occurrences had thrown on many of the Longbourn family. They saw him often, and to his other recommendations was now added that of general unreserve. The whole of what Elizabeth had already heard, his claims on Mr. Darcy, and all that he had suffered from him, was now openly acknowledged and publicly canvassed; and everybody was pleased to think how much they had always disliked Mr. Darcy before they had known anything of the matter.
Miss Bennet was the only creature who could suppose there might be any extenuating circumstances in the case unknown to the society of Hertfordshire: her mild and steady candour always pleaded for allowances, and urged the possibility of mistakes; but by everybody else Mr. Darcy was condemned as the worst of men.
中文翻译(全文)
宾利小姐的信来了,疑团就此了结。信的第一句就明明白白地说,他们全家已经在伦敦安顿下来,要在那里过冬;信的末尾则转达了她哥哥的遗憾——他离开乡下之前,没能抽出时间去赫特福德郡向朋友们辞行。
希望破灭了,彻底破灭了。等简定下神来读信的其余部分,她发现除了写信人表白的情谊,几乎没有什么能给她安慰。信里大半篇幅都在称赞达西小姐。她那些动人的好处又被一一细说;卡罗琳还得意扬扬地夸口说她们交情日深,并且大胆预言,她上一封信里透露过的愿望就要实现。她还兴高采烈地写到她哥哥如今寄住在达西先生府上,又欣喜若狂地提到达西先生打算添置新家具的几项计划。
简很快把信里的主要内容都告诉了伊丽莎白,伊丽莎白听着,一言不发,心里却满是愤慨。她的心一半挂念姐姐,一半恼恨旁人。卡罗琳说哥哥对达西小姐有意,她一个字也不信。至于宾利真心喜欢简,她从不曾怀疑,如今也毫不怀疑;她一向愿意往好处看他,可一想到他那软和的性子、那份拿不出主意的优柔——如今竟使他成了那些工于心计的朋友们的傀儡,让他为了他们心血来潮的念头牺牲自己的幸福——她便不能不生气,简直不能不鄙视。然而,倘若牺牲的只是他自己的幸福,那也尽可随他高兴怎么糟蹋去罢;可这回连她姐姐的幸福也赔了进去,而她相信他自己一定也明白这一点。总之,这是个叫人反复思量、却又注定无济于事的话题。她别的什么也想不到了;可是,宾利的情意究竟是当真冷了下去,还是被朋友们从中拦阻;他究竟知道不知道简对他有意,还是压根儿没看出来——无论哪一种情形,虽然她对宾利的看法难免因此大不相同,她姐姐的处境却还是一样,心上的安宁也照旧受了伤。
过了一两天,简才有勇气向伊丽莎白吐露心事;可终于有一天,班纳特太太照例又为尼日斐花园和它的主人发了一通比往常更久的牢骚,然后走开了,留下姐妹俩在一起,简忍不住说道——
“唉,真希望我亲爱的母亲能多约束约束自己!她这样没完没了地数落他,根本不知道自己叫我多难受。可是我不要怨天尤人。这也长不了。他会被人忘掉的,我们大家都会回到从前的样子。”
伊丽莎白带着几分不敢相信的关切望着姐姐,却什么也没说。
“你不信我,”简嚷道,脸微微红了,“真的,你没有理由不信。他尽可以留在我记忆里,做我认识的人中最和蔼可亲的一个,可也就仅此而已。我既没有什么可盼望的,也没有什么可害怕的,更没有什么可责怪他的。谢天谢地,我还没有落到那步田地。所以,只消一点时间——我一定会努力振作起来——”
她随即提高了声音,接着说:“我眼下就有这一点可安慰的:这不过是我自己一场痴心妄想,除了我,没有害着谁。”
“我亲爱的简,”伊丽莎白叫道,“你太好了。你这份温柔和无私真像天使一般;我都不知道该跟你说什么好。我只觉得自己从来不曾公正地待你,也不曾像你应得的那样爱你。”
班纳特小姐连忙否认自己有什么了不起的长处,反把称赞推回到妹妹那份热切的深情上去。
“不行,”伊丽莎白说,“这不公平。你巴不得把世上的人都看成可敬的,我要是说谁不好,你就受不了。我只想把你看成十全十美,你偏偏又不肯。你别怕我会走极端,怕我侵占了你那份普爱众生的特权。你不必担心。我真心喜爱的人本来就不多,看得上眼的就更少。这世道我见得越多,越觉得不满意;一天一天下来,我越发相信人人都是自相矛盾的,越发相信无论才德还是见识,外表都靠不住。近来我就碰到两件事:一件我不愿提,另一件就是夏洛特的婚事。真是莫名其妙!无论从哪方面看,都莫名其妙!”
“我亲爱的莉齐,别由着这种情绪去。它会毁掉你的幸福的。你对各人处境和性情的不同,体谅得还不够。想想柯林斯先生为人可敬,想想夏洛特那份谨慎稳重的性子。别忘了她家里人口多;论家产,这门亲事再合适不过了;你也不妨为了大家的缘故,相信她对咱们这位表兄多少也有些敬重之意。”
“为了顺你的意,我几乎什么都愿意去信;可这种信念对别人没有半点好处。因为倘若我真被说服,相信夏洛特对他有几分情意,那我对她的头脑的评价,就要比对她的心的评价更低了。我亲爱的简,柯林斯先生是个自负、浮夸、心眼窄、又蠢气的人:这你知道,我也知道;你我都一定感觉得到,嫁给他的女人不可能有正当的见识。虽然那人是夏洛特·卢卡斯,你也不该替她辩护。你不能为了一个人,就把原则和正直的含义都改掉,也不能想法子说服你自己或者我,说什么自私就是谨慎,对危险麻木就是幸福的保障。”
“你把他们两个都说成这样,我觉得话太重了,”简答道,“我希望等看见他们和和美美地过日子,你就会相信自己说得过分。不过这些也够了。你刚才还提到别的事。你说碰到了两件事。我不会听不出你的意思,可是我求你,亲爱的莉齐,别让我难受——别认定那个人有什么错处,也别说什么你把他看低了。我们不该动不动就以为别人存心伤害自己。我们也不该指望一个活泼的年轻人时时刻刻都那么谨慎小心。十有八九,骗我们的不过是我们自己的虚荣罢了。女人总以为人家对自己有意,就比实际的情形多得多。”
“而男人们又特意让她们这么以为。”
“倘若是存心这么做,那他们就说不过去;不过我可不信这世上有那么多人心设的圈套,像有些人想的那样。”
“我绝没有说宾利先生的所作所为里有什么存心算计,”伊丽莎白说,“可是,一个人并不图谋做错事,也不图谋叫别人痛苦,照样会铸成错,照样会酿出苦果。漫不经心、不顾别人的感受、拿不定主意,这些就足够把事情弄糟了。”
“那你是把这件事归到其中哪一条上?”
“是的,归到最后一条。可我要再说下去,就要议论你所敬重的人,惹你不高兴了。趁你还拦得住,快拦住我吧。”
“那么你还是认定他姐妹在左右他?”
“是的,再加上他那位朋友。”
“我不信。她们何必要左右他呢?她们总只能盼他幸福;而他若是真喜欢我,别的女人谁也给不了他这份幸福。”
“你头一条就站不住。除了他的幸福,她们想望的事多着呢:她们想望他增财添势;她们想望他娶一个既有钱、又有阔亲戚、又有傲气的姑娘,好样样都体面。”
“她们确实是想让他娶达西小姐,这毫无疑问,”简答道,“可这也许出于比你所设想的更好的心思。她们认识她比我久得多,格外喜欢她也不足为怪。可是,不管她们自己有什么想望,她们总不大可能去反对自己的哥哥。做姐妹的,除非看出对方有什么极不妥当的地方,谁会以为自己有权这么做呢?她们若是相信他对我有意,就不会设法拆散我们;他若真有这份心,她们也拆不散。你这样设想他对我的情意,就等于让每个人都行事反常、都做错,而最难受的是我。别拿这种念头来折磨我了。我并不因为自己看错了人而羞愧——至少,那点错很轻,算不得什么,比起我要是把他或他的姐妹往坏处想会感到的痛苦,简直不算什么。让我从最好的方面去看这件事吧,从它本来可以被人理解的那个方面去看。”
伊丽莎白无法违拗这样的心愿;从此她们两人之间几乎再没有提起过宾利先生的名字。
班纳特太太仍旧为他不肯再来而纳闷、抱怨;伊丽莎白几乎天天都把这事的缘由讲得清清楚楚,可要让她少些困惑,看来是没什么指望了。女儿竭力想叫她相信一件连自己也不信的事:宾利对简的殷勤,不过是一时平常的好感,既然见不着面,那份好感也就断了;这话当时虽也被认作有几分道理,她却每天照旧把那套话重念一遍。班纳特太太最大的安慰是:宾利先生夏天一定还会到乡下来。
班纳特先生对这事的看法却不一样。“这么说,莉齐,”有一天他说,“我看你姐姐是失恋了。我恭喜她。姑娘家除了出嫁,也喜欢隔一阵子失一回恋。这总有件事可以想想,还能叫她在同伴中间显得与众不同。什么时候轮到你呢?你怕不肯长久让简独占风光吧。眼下正是你的机会。麦里屯的军官足够叫这一乡的年轻小姐个个都失望一回。就让威克姆做你的人吧。他是个讨人喜欢的家伙,甩起你来也一定体面。”
“谢谢您,爸爸,不过差一点的男人也就够我受用了。我们总不能都指望有简那样的好运气。”
“说得对,”班纳特先生说,“不过想到这一点也就宽慰了:不管你碰上这类什么事,你总还有个体贴的母亲,她总会把其中的好处尽量发挥出来。”
有威克姆先生作伴,大大有助于驱散近来那些不顺心的事给朗伯恩家许多人蒙上的阴霾。他们常和他见面,而他除了原有的那些长处,如今又添了一条:什么都肯直说。伊丽莎白先前听到的那一番话——他对达西先生的要求,以及他受达西的种种委屈——如今都公开承认,任人议论了;人人都很得意地想到:早在这件事没露头之前,他们就已经那么讨厌达西先生了。
班纳特小姐是唯一一个会想到这事情里也许另有赫特福德郡的人所不知道的情由、可以减轻罪责的人:她那温和而坚定的公正心,总要替人多求些体谅,总说也许其中有误会;可是除她之外,人人都断定达西先生是天下最坏的人。

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