傲慢与偏见·第 26 / 61 章

Chapter XXVI

第二十六章

B2中级37.4
2347 词 12 分钟 11 次阅读

RS. GARDINER’S caution to Elizabeth was punctually and kindly given on the first favourable opportunity of speaking to her alone: after honestly telling her what she thought, she thus went on:— “You a…

MRS. GARDINER’S caution to Elizabeth was punctually and kindly given on the first favourable opportunity of speaking to her alone: after honestly telling her what she thought, she thus went on:—

“You are too sensible a girl, Lizzy, to fall in love merely because you are warned against it; and, therefore, I am not afraid of speaking openly. Seriously, I would have you be on your guard. Do not involve yourself, or endeavour to involve him, in an affection which the want of fortune would make so very imprudent. I have nothing to say against him: he is a most interesting young man; and if he had the fortune he ought to have, I should think you could not do better. But as it is—you must not let your fancy run away with you. You have sense, and we all expect you to use it. Your father would depend on your resolution and good conduct, I am sure. You must not disappoint your father.”

“My dear aunt, this is being serious indeed.”

“Yes, and I hope to engage you to be serious likewise.”

“Well, then, you need not be under any alarm. I will take care of myself, and of Mr. Wickham too. He shall not be in love with me, if I can prevent it.”

“Elizabeth, you are not serious now.”

“I beg your pardon. I will try again. At present I am not in love with Mr. Wickham; no, I certainly am not. But he is, beyond all comparison, the most agreeable man I ever saw—and if he becomes really attached to me—I believe it will be better that he should not. I see the imprudence of it. Oh, that abominable Mr. Darcy! My father’s opinion of me does me the greatest honour; and I should be miserable to forfeit it. My father, however, is partial to Mr. Wickham. In short, my dear aunt, I should be very sorry to be the means of making any of you unhappy; but since we see, every day, that where there is affection young people are seldom withheld, by immediate want of fortune, from entering into engagements with each other, how can I promise to be wiser than so many of my fellow-creatures, if I am tempted, or how am I even to know that it would be wiser to resist? All that I can promise you, therefore, is not to be in a hurry. I will not be in a hurry to believe myself his first object. When I am in company with him, I will not be wishing. In short, I will do my best.”

“Perhaps it will be as well if you discourage his coming here so very often. At least you should not remind your mother of inviting him.”

“As I did the other day,” said Elizabeth, with a conscious smile; “very true, it will be wise in me to refrain from that. But do not imagine that he is always here so often. It is on your account that he has been so frequently invited this week. You know my mother’s ideas as to the necessity of constant company for her friends. But really, and upon my honour, I will try to do what I think to be wisest; and now I hope you are satisfied.”

Her aunt assured her that she was; and Elizabeth, having thanked her for the kindness of her hints, they parted,—a wonderful instance of advice being given on such a point without being resented.

Mr. Collins returned into Hertfordshire soon after it had been quitted by the Gardiners and Jane; but, as he took up his abode with the Lucases, his arrival was no great inconvenience to Mrs. Bennet. His marriage was now fast approaching; and she was at length so far resigned as to think it inevitable, and even repeatedly to say, in an ill-natured tone, that she “wished they might be happy.” Thursday was to be the wedding-day, and on Wednesday Miss Lucas paid her farewell visit; and when she rose to take leave, Elizabeth, ashamed of her mother’s ungracious and reluctant good wishes, and sincerely affected herself, accompanied her out of the room. As they went down stairs together, Charlotte said,—

“I shall depend on hearing from you very often, Eliza.”

“That you certainly shall.”

“And I have another favour to ask. Will you come and see me?”

“We shall often meet, I hope, in Hertfordshire.”

“I am not likely to leave Kent for some time. Promise me, therefore, to come to Hunsford.”

Elizabeth could not refuse, though she foresaw little pleasure in the visit.

“My father and Maria are to come to me in March,” added Charlotte, “and I hope you will consent to be of the party. Indeed, Eliza, you will be as welcome to me as either of them.”

The wedding took place: the bride and bridegroom set off for Kent from the church door, and everybody had as much to say or to hear on the subject as usual. Elizabeth soon heard from her friend, and their correspondence was as regular and frequent as it ever had been: that it should be equally unreserved was impossible. Elizabeth could never address her without feeling that all the comfort of intimacy was over; and, though determined not to slacken as a correspondent, it was for the sake of what had been rather than what was. Charlotte’s first letters were received with a good deal of eagerness: there could not but be curiosity to know how she would speak of her new home, how she would like Lady Catherine, and how happy she would dare pronounce herself to be; though, when the letters were read, Elizabeth felt that Charlotte expressed herself on every point exactly as she might have foreseen. She wrote cheerfully, seemed surrounded with comforts, and mentioned nothing which she could not praise. The house, furniture, neighbourhood, and roads, were all to her taste, and Lady Catherine’s behaviour was most friendly and obliging. It was Mr. Collins’s picture of Hunsford and Rosings rationally softened; and Elizabeth perceived that she must wait for her own visit there, to know the rest.

Jane had already written a few lines to her sister, to announce their safe arrival in London; and when she wrote again, Elizabeth hoped it would be in her power to say something of the Bingleys.

Her impatience for this second letter was as well rewarded as impatience generally is. Jane had been a week in town, without either seeing or hearing from Caroline. She accounted for it, however, by supposing that her last letter to her friend from Longbourn had by some accident been lost.

“My aunt,” she continued, “is going to-morrow into that part of the town, and I shall take the opportunity of calling in Grosvenor Street.”

She wrote again when the visit was paid, and she had seen Miss Bingley. “I did not think Caroline in spirits,” were her words, “but she was very glad to see me, and reproached me for giving her no notice of my coming to London. I was right, therefore; my last letter had never reached her. I inquired after their brother, of course. He was well, but so much engaged with Mr. Darcy that they scarcely ever saw him. I found that Miss Darcy was expected to dinner: I wish I could see her. My visit was not long, as Caroline and Mrs. Hurst were going out. I dare say I shall soon see them here.”

Elizabeth shook her head over this letter. It convinced her that accident only could discover to Mr. Bingley her sister’s being in town.

Four weeks passed away, and Jane saw nothing of him. She endeavoured to persuade herself that she did not regret it; but she could no longer be blind to Miss Bingley’s inattention. After waiting at home every morning for a fortnight, and inventing every evening a fresh excuse for her, the visitor did at last appear; but the shortness of her stay, and, yet more, the alteration of her manner, would allow Jane to deceive herself no longer. The letter which she wrote on this occasion to her sister will prove what she felt:—

“My dearest Lizzy will, I am sure, be incapable of triumphing in her better judgment, at my expense, when I confess myself to have been entirely deceived in Miss Bingley’s regard for me. But, my dear sister, though the event has proved you right, do not think me obstinate if I still assert that, considering what her behaviour was, my confidence was as natural as your suspicion. I do not at all comprehend her reason for wishing to be intimate with me; but, if the same circumstances were to happen again, I am sure I should be deceived again. Caroline did not return my visit till yesterday; and not a note, not a line, did I receive in the meantime. When she did come, it was very evident that she had no pleasure in it; she made a slight, formal apology for not calling before, said not a word of wishing to see me again, and was, in every respect, so altered a creature, that when she went away I was perfectly resolved to continue the acquaintance no longer. I pity, though I cannot help blaming, her. She was very wrong in singling me out as she did; I can safely say, that every advance to intimacy began on her side. But I pity her, because she must feel that she has been acting wrong, and because I am very sure that anxiety for her brother is the cause of it. I need not explain myself farther; and though we know this anxiety to be quite needless, yet if she feels it, it will easily account for her behaviour to me; and so deservedly dear as he is to his sister, whatever anxiety she may feel on his behalf is natural and amiable. I cannot but wonder, however, at her having any such fears now, because if he had at all cared about me, we must have met long, long ago. He knows of my being in town, I am certain, from something she said herself; and yet it would seem, by her manner of talking, as if she wanted to persuade herself that he is really partial to Miss Darcy. I cannot understand it. If I were not afraid of judging harshly, I should be almost tempted to say, that there is a strong appearance of duplicity in all this. I will endeavour to banish every painful thought, and think only of what will make me happy, your affection, and the invariable kindness of my dear uncle and aunt. Let me hear from you very soon. Miss Bingley said something of his never returning to Netherfield again, of giving up the house, but not with any certainty. We had better not mention it. I am extremely glad that you have such pleasant accounts from our friends at Hunsford. Pray go to see them, with Sir William and Maria. I am sure you will be very comfortable there.

“Yours, etc.”

This letter gave Elizabeth some pain; but her spirits returned, as she considered that Jane would no longer be duped, by the sister at least. All expectation from the brother was now absolutely over. She would not even wish for any renewal of his attentions. His character sunk on every review of it; and, as a punishment for him, as well as a possible advantage to Jane, she seriously hoped he might really soon marry Mr. Darcy’s sister, as, by Wickham’s account, she would make him abundantly regret what he had thrown away.

Mrs. Gardiner about this time reminded Elizabeth of her promise concerning that gentleman, and required information; and Elizabeth had such to send as might rather give contentment to her aunt than to herself. His apparent partiality had subsided, his attentions were over, he was the admirer of some one else. Elizabeth was watchful enough to see it all, but she could see it and write of it without material pain. Her heart had been but slightly touched, and her vanity was satisfied with believing that she would have been his only choice, had fortune permitted it. The sudden acquisition of ten thousand pounds was the most remarkable charm of the young lady to whom he was now rendering himself agreeable; but Elizabeth, less clear-sighted perhaps in this case than in Charlotte’s, did not quarrel with him for his wish of independence. Nothing, on the contrary, could be more natural; and, while able to suppose that it cost him a few struggles to relinquish her, she was ready to allow it a wise and desirable measure for both, and could very sincerely wish him happy.

All this was acknowledged to Mrs. Gardiner; and, after relating the circumstances, she thus went on:—“I am now convinced, my dear aunt, that I have never been much in love; for had I really experienced that pure and elevating passion, I should at present detest his very name, and wish him all manner of evil. But my feelings are not only cordial towards him, they are even impartial towards Miss King. I cannot find out that I hate her at all, or that I am in the least unwilling to think her a very good sort of girl. There can be no love in all this. My watchfulness has been effectual; and though I should certainly be a more interesting object to all my acquaintance, were I distractedly in love with him, I cannot say that I regret my comparative insignificance. Importance may sometimes be purchased too dearly. Kitty and Lydia take his defection much more to heart than I do. They are young in the ways of the world, and not yet open to the mortifying conviction that handsome young men must have something to live on as well as the plain.”

中文翻译(全文)

加德纳太太对伊丽莎白的告诫,在第一次有机会单独同她说话的有利时机,就准时而亲切地说了出来。她把自己的想法坦诚地告诉了她,接着又说道:——

“莉齐,你是个明白事理的姑娘,不会仅仅因为别人告诫你不要恋爱,就偏要去爱;所以我才不怕把话说开。说正经的,我希望你多加小心。不要让自己陷进去,也不要设法让他陷进去——这种感情因为双方都缺钱,会显得极不明智。我对他本人没有什么可指责的:他是个很有意思的年轻人;要是他有他本该有的财产,我认为你再没有更好的选择了。可如今——你可不能让想象冲昏了头脑。你是有头脑的,我们都指望你运用它。我相信,你父亲也会信赖你的决心和品行。你千万不要让你父亲失望。”

“亲爱的舅妈,这话说得可真是严肃。”

“是的,我也希望你能跟我一样严肃起来。”

“那么,您就不必有任何担心了。我会照管好自己,也会照管好威克姆先生。只要我拦得住,他就不会爱上我。”

“伊丽莎白,你现在又不认真了。”

“请您原谅。我再来一次。目前我并没有爱上威克姆先生;没有,我确实没有。可是,他比我所见过的任何男人都更讨人喜欢,简直无从比较——如果他真的对我动了情——我觉得他还是不动情为好。我看得出这有多不明智。哦,那个可恶的达西先生!父亲对我的看重,给了我极大的荣幸;要是失去了它,我会很难过的。不过,父亲倒是偏爱威克姆先生。总之,亲爱的舅妈,要是我成了让您们任何一位不快乐的原因,我会非常难过的;可是我们每天都看到,只要有了感情,年轻人很少会因为一时缺钱就不订下婚约,那么,如果我受到诱惑,我怎么能保证自己比那么多同辈人更明智呢?我又怎么能知道抵抗就一定更明智呢?所以,我能向您保证的,只是不着急。我不会急着相信自己是他心上第一人。和他在一起时,我不会心存非分之想。总之,我会尽力而为。”

“你若是少让他来得这么勤,也许倒好些。至少你不该提醒你母亲去请他。”

“就像我那天那样,”伊丽莎白带着自知失言的笑意说,“说得对,我要是忍住不提,那才聪明。可您别以为他平时总来得这么勤。这一周请他来得这么频繁,都是为了您呀。您知道我母亲的想法,她觉得朋友就得常来常往。不过说真的,我以名誉担保,我会尽力去做我认为最明智的事;现在我希望您满意了。”

舅妈向她保证说满意了;伊丽莎白谢过她这番好心的提醒,两人便分手了——在这样的事情上给人劝告而不被见怪,实在是个难得的例子。

加德纳夫妇和简离开赫特福德郡之后不久,柯林斯先生就回来了;不过,他既然在卢卡斯家落脚,他的到来对班纳特太太也就没有多大不便。他的婚期眼看就要到了;她到头来也只好认了,觉得这是无可避免的事,甚至一再恶狠狠地说,她“但愿他们幸福”。星期四将是举行婚礼的日子;星期三,卢卡斯小姐来登门辞行。她起身告辞时,伊丽莎白为母亲那番勉勉强强、言不由衷的祝福感到羞愧,自己心里也着实难过,便陪她走出房去。两人一同下楼时,夏洛特说道:——

“我会盼着你常常来信的,伊莱扎。”

“你当然会收到。”

“我还有一件事要求你。你肯来看我吗?”

“我想我们会在赫特福德郡常常见面的。”

“我一时半会儿还不会离开肯特郡。所以,答应我到汉斯福德来吧。”

伊丽莎白无法拒绝,虽然她预料这趟探望不会有什么乐趣。

“我父亲和玛丽亚三月要到我这儿来,”夏洛特又说,“我希望你也肯一起来。说真的,伊莱扎,你到我这里来,会和她们两位一样受欢迎的。”

婚礼举行了:新郎新娘从教堂门口动身去肯特郡,大家照例对这件事议论纷纷,听的说的都跟往常一样多。伊丽莎白不久就收到了朋友的信,两人通信仍像从前一样按时而频繁;要像从前那样毫无保留,却是不可能了。伊丽莎白每次给她写信,都不能不觉得亲密无间的那份自在已经没有了;她虽然决心不做一个疏懒的通信人,却只是为了过去的情分,而不是为了现在。夏洛特的头几封信,她是怀着极大的急切心情读的:她当然好奇,想知道夏洛特会怎样谈她的新家,会怎样看待凯瑟琳夫人,又敢把自己说得多么幸福;可是信读过之后,伊丽莎白觉得夏洛特在每一点上的说法,都恰恰如她所预料。她写得很欢快,仿佛处处舒心,没有一件事是她不能称赞的。房子、家具、邻里、道路,全都合她的意;凯瑟琳夫人的举止也极为亲切周到。这无非是柯林斯先生笔下的汉斯福德和罗新斯,只是经过理智的冲淡;伊丽莎白明白,她得等自己亲自去一趟,才能知道其余的情形。

简已经给妹妹写过几行,报告她们平安到了伦敦;伊丽莎白希望她下次来信时,能说上几句宾利家的事。

她等第二封信等得心焦,而这心焦也照例得到了应得的回报。简到城里已经一个星期,却既没见到卡罗琳,也没收到她的音信。不过简自己解释说,想必是她上一次从朗伯恩写给这位朋友的信,偶然遗失了。

“舅妈明天要到城里那一带地方去,”她接着写道,“我要趁这个机会到格罗夫纳街去拜访一下。”

这次拜访之后她又写了信来,说是见到了宾利小姐。“我觉得卡罗琳情绪不大好,”她写道,“不过她见到我很高兴,还怪我来伦敦没有通知她。所以我猜对了:我上一封信她根本没收到。我当然问起了她哥哥。他很好,只是给达西先生缠住了,她们几乎见不着他。我听说达西小姐要来吃饭:我真希望能见见她。我没坐多久,因为卡罗琳和赫斯特太太要出门。我想我很快会在这里见到她们的。”

伊丽莎白对着这封信摇了摇头。这封信使她确信,只有碰巧,宾利先生才会知道她姐姐到了城里。

四个星期过去了,简始终没见到他。她竭力说服自己并不为此难过,可对宾利小姐的冷淡,她再也不能视而不见了。她在家里每天上午等了两星期,每晚又替对方编出一个新的借口,那位客人终于来了;可是她待的时间之短,尤其是她态度的改变,使简再也无法自欺。她这次写给妹妹的信,可以说明她的心情:——

“我最亲爱的莉齐,我承认自己在宾利小姐对我的情意上完全看错了;我相信,你绝不会拿自己更高的眼力来得意,叫我难堪。可是,亲爱的姐姐,虽然事情证明你是对的,也请你不要以为我固执,我还要说:考虑到她当初的举止,我的信任和你的怀疑一样自然。我一点也不明白她为什么要同我亲近;不过,要是同样的情形再来一次,我肯定还会受骗。卡罗琳直到昨天才回拜我,这期间我连一张便条、一行字也没收到。她来时,显然并不乐意;她为先前没来拜访淡淡地、客套地道了声歉,一句想再见到我的话也没说,而且处处都像变了个人,所以她一走,我就下定决心不再同她来往了。我可怜她,虽然也忍不住要怪她。她那样单单挑中我,实在大错特错;我可以肯定地说,每一次亲近的表示,都是从她那边先起的。但我可怜她,因为她一定觉得自己做错了事,而且我十分相信,这都是为她哥哥着急的缘故。我不必再多解释了;虽然我们知道这种着急完全多余,可如果她真有这份心,那也不难解释她对我的态度;哥哥在她妹妹心里既然如此值得珍爱,她为他担些心,也是自然而又可亲的。不过我实在不明白她如今怎么还会有这样的担心,因为如果他对我哪怕有一点情意,我们早就该见面了,早就该见了。我敢肯定他知道我在城里,这是从她自己说的话里听出来的;可是听她说话的口气,倒像是她想说服自己相信他真的中意达西小姐。我不明白这是怎么回事。要不是怕把人想得太坏,我几乎要说,这一切很像是两面三刀。我要努力赶走一切痛苦的想法,只想那些能使我快乐的事:你的情谊,以及亲爱的舅舅舅妈始终不变的好意。请快点给我来信。宾利小姐提到他也许再也不回尼日斐花园,还说要退掉那所房子,但说得很不确定。我们最好别再提这件事。我非常高兴你从汉斯福德的朋友们那里听到这么愉快的消息。请一定和威廉爵士、玛丽亚一起去看看他们。我相信你在那里会过得很舒服。

“你的……”

这封信使伊丽莎白有些难过;不过她一想到简至少不会再受那位妹妹的骗,心情便又好了起来。对那位哥哥的一切指望,现在彻底完了。她甚至不愿他再来献殷勤。她每回想一次他的品行,就觉得它低了一分;作为对他的惩罚,也作为对简也许有好处的事,她真心希望他赶快娶达西先生的妹妹,因为据威克姆说,那位小姐会让他大大后悔自己丢掉的东西。

大约就在这时候,加德纳太太提醒伊丽莎白别忘了她关于那位先生许下的诺言,要她讲讲情况;伊丽莎白能报告的消息,大概更让舅妈满意,而不是让她自己满意。他表面上那份偏爱已经消退,殷勤已经结束,他如今倾慕的是另一个人。伊丽莎白看得够清楚,能把这一切都看在眼里,可是看在眼里、写在信里,都没有叫她真正难过。她的心只被轻轻触动过,而她的虚荣心则因为相信“要是财产允许,我本会是他唯一的选择”而得到了满足。那位如今受他殷勤奉承的小姐,最引人注目的魅力是突然得到了上万英镑;不过伊丽莎白在这件事上也许不如在夏洛特那件事上看得清楚,并没有因为他想自立门户而责怪他。相反,没有什么比这更自然的了;她虽然可以想见他放弃她时曾有过几番挣扎,却愿意承认这对双方都是明智而可取的决定,并且能真心诚意地祝他幸福。

这一切她都向加德纳太太承认了;讲完这些情形之后,她又接着说道:——“亲爱的舅妈,我现在确信,我从来没有真正爱过他;因为我若真体验过那种纯洁而高尚的激情,此刻我该厌恶他的名字,巴不得他遭尽一切灾祸。可我对他的感情不仅友好,甚至对金小姐也毫无偏私。我找不出自己有一丝恨她的地方,也丝毫不愿不把她看成一个很好的姑娘。这里面根本没有爱情。我的警觉奏了效;虽然我要是为他神魂颠倒,在熟人眼里一定会是个更有意思的人物,我却不能说,自己为这份相对的微不足道感到遗憾。引人注目有时要付太大的代价。基蒂和莉迪亚对他的变心,比我伤心得多。她们在人情世故上还年轻,还没有接受这个令人难堪的信念:漂亮的年轻人也和相貌平平的人一样,总得有东西糊口。”

评论

0 条讨论

按时间

登录后发表评论

立即登录

暂无评论

成为第一个分享想法的人吧!