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Chapter XLI

第四十一章

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HE first week of their return was soon gone. The second began. It was the last of the regiment’s stay in Meryton, and all the young ladies in the neighbourhood were drooping apace. The dejection was a…

THE first week of their return was soon gone. The second began. It was the last of the regiment’s stay in Meryton, and all the young ladies in the neighbourhood were drooping apace. The dejection was almost universal. The elder Miss Bennets alone were still able to eat, drink, and sleep, and pursue the usual course of their employments. Very frequently were they reproached for this insensibility by Kitty and Lydia, whose own misery was extreme, and who could not comprehend such hard-heartedness in any of the family.

“Good Heaven! What is to become of us? What are we to do?” would they often exclaim in the bitterness of woe. “How can you be smiling so, Lizzy?”

Their affectionate mother shared all their grief; she remembered what she had herself endured on a similar occasion five-and-twenty years ago.

“I am sure,” said she, “I cried for two days together when Colonel Miller’s regiment went away. I thought I should have broke my heart.”

“I am sure I shall break mine,” said Lydia.

“If one could but go to Brighton!” observed Mrs. Bennet.

“Oh yes!—if one could but go to Brighton! But papa is so disagreeable.”

“A little sea-bathing would set me up for ever.”

“And my aunt Philips is sure it would do me a great deal of good,” added Kitty.

Such were the kind of lamentations resounding perpetually through Longbourn House. Elizabeth tried to be diverted by them; but all sense of pleasure was lost in shame. She felt anew the justice of Mr. Darcy’s objections; and never had she before been so much disposed to pardon his interference in the views of his friend.

But the gloom of Lydia’s prospect was shortly cleared away; for she received an invitation from Mrs. Forster, the wife of the colonel of the regiment, to accompany her to Brighton. This invaluable friend was a very young woman, and very lately married. A resemblance in good-humour and good spirits had recommended her and Lydia to each other, and out of their three months’ acquaintance they had been intimate two.

The rapture of Lydia on this occasion, her adoration of Mrs. Forster, the delight of Mrs. Bennet, and the mortification of Kitty, are scarcely to be described. Wholly inattentive to her sister’s feelings, Lydia flew about the house in restless ecstasy, calling for everyone’s congratulations, and laughing and talking with more violence than ever; whilst the luckless Kitty continued in the parlour repining at her fate in terms as unreasonable as her accent was peevish.

“I cannot see why Mrs. Forster should not ask me as well as Lydia,” said she, “though I am not her particular friend. I have just as much right to be asked as she has, and more too, for I am two years older.”

In vain did Elizabeth attempt to make her reasonable, and Jane to make her resigned. As for Elizabeth herself, this invitation was so far from exciting in her the same feelings as in her mother and Lydia, that she considered it as the death-warrant of all possibility of common sense for the latter; and detestable as such a step must make her, were it known, she could not help secretly advising her father not to let her go. She represented to him all the improprieties of Lydia’s general behaviour, the little advantage she could derive from the friendship of such a woman as Mrs. Forster, and the probability of her being yet more imprudent with such a companion at Brighton, where the temptations must be greater than at home. He heard her attentively, and then said,—

“Lydia will never be easy till she has exposed herself in some public place or other, and we can never expect her to do it with so little expense or inconvenience to her family as under the present circumstances.”

“If you were aware,” said Elizabeth, “of the very great disadvantage to us all, which must arise from the public notice of Lydia’s unguarded and imprudent manner, nay, which has already arisen from it, I am sure you would judge differently in the affair.”

“Already arisen!” repeated Mr. Bennet. “What! has she frightened away some of your lovers? Poor little Lizzy! But do not be cast down. Such squeamish youths as cannot bear to be connected with a little absurdity are not worth a regret. Come, let me see the list of the pitiful fellows who have been kept aloof by Lydia’s folly.”

“Indeed, you are mistaken. I have no such injuries to resent. It is not of peculiar, but of general evils, which I am now complaining. Our importance, our respectability in the world, must be affected by the wild volatility, the assurance and disdain of all restraint which mark Lydia’s character. Excuse me,—for I must speak plainly. If you, my dear father, will not take the trouble of checking her exuberant spirits, and of teaching her that her present pursuits are not to be the business of her life, she will soon be beyond the reach of amendment. Her character will be fixed; and she will, at sixteen, be the most determined flirt that ever made herself and her family ridiculous;—a flirt, too, in the worst and meanest degree of flirtation; without any attraction beyond youth and a tolerable person; and, from the ignorance and emptiness of her mind, wholly unable to ward off any portion of that universal contempt which her rage for admiration will excite. In this danger Kitty is also comprehended. She will follow wherever Lydia leads. Vain, ignorant, idle, and absolutely uncontrolled! Oh, my dear father, can you suppose it possible that they will not be censured and despised wherever they are known, and that their sisters will not be often involved in the disgrace?”

Mr. Bennet saw that her whole heart was in the subject; and, affectionately taking her hand, said, in reply,—

“Do not make yourself uneasy, my love. Wherever you and Jane are known, you must be respected and valued; and you will not appear to less advantage for having a couple of—or I may say, three—very silly sisters. We shall have no peace at Longbourn if Lydia does not go to Brighton. Let her go, then. Colonel Forster is a sensible man, and will keep her out of any real mischief; and she is luckily too poor to be an object of prey to anybody. At Brighton she will be of less importance even as a common flirt than she has been here. The officers will find women better worth their notice. Let us hope, therefore, that her being there may teach her her own insignificance. At any rate, she cannot grow many degrees worse, without authorizing us to lock her up for the rest of her life.”

With this answer Elizabeth was forced to be content; but her own opinion continued the same, and she left him disappointed and sorry. It was not in her nature, however, to increase her vexations by dwelling on them. She was confident of having performed her duty; and to fret over unavoidable evils, or augment them by anxiety, was no part of her disposition.

Had Lydia and her mother known the substance of her conference with her father, their indignation would hardly have found expression in their united volubility. In Lydia’s imagination, a visit to Brighton comprised every possibility of earthly happiness. She saw, with the creative eye of fancy, the streets of that gay bathing-place covered with officers. She saw herself the object of attention to tens and to scores of them at present unknown. She saw all the glories of the camp: its tents stretched forth in beauteous uniformity of lines, crowded with the young and the gay, and dazzling with scarlet; and, to complete the view, she saw herself seated beneath a tent, tenderly flirting with at least six officers at once.

“Tenderly flirting”

[Copyright 1894 by George Allen.]

Had she known that her sister sought to tear her from such prospects and such realities as these, what would have been her sensations? They could have been understood only by her mother, who might have felt nearly the same. Lydia’s going to Brighton was all that consoled her for the melancholy conviction of her husband’s never intending to go there himself.

But they were entirely ignorant of what had passed; and their raptures continued, with little intermission, to the very day of Lydia’s leaving home.

Elizabeth was now to see Mr. Wickham for the last time. Having been frequently in company with him since her return, agitation was pretty well over; the agitations of former partiality entirely so. She had even learnt to detect, in the very gentleness which had first delighted her, an affectation and a sameness to disgust and weary. In his present behaviour to herself, moreover, she had a fresh source of displeasure; for the inclination he soon testified of renewing those attentions which had marked the early part of their acquaintance could only serve, after what had since passed, to provoke her. She lost all concern for him in finding herself thus selected as the object of such idle and frivolous gallantry; and while she steadily repressed it, could not but feel the reproof contained in his believing, that however long, and for whatever cause, his attentions had been withdrawn, her vanity would be gratified, and her preference secured, at any time, by their renewal.

On the very last day of the regiment’s remaining in Meryton, he dined, with others of the officers, at Longbourn; and so little was Elizabeth disposed to part from him in good-humour, that, on his making some inquiry as to the manner in which her time had passed at Hunsford, she mentioned Colonel Fitzwilliam’s and Mr. Darcy’s having both spent three weeks at Rosings, and asked him if he were acquainted with the former.

He looked surprised, displeased, alarmed; but, with a moment’s recollection, and a returning smile, replied, that he had formerly seen him often; and, after observing that he was a very gentlemanlike man, asked her how she had liked him. Her answer was warmly in his favour. With an air of indifference, he soon afterwards added, “How long did you say that he was at Rosings?”

“Nearly three weeks.”

“And you saw him frequently?”

“Yes, almost every day.”

“His manners are very different from his cousin’s.”

“Yes, very different; but I think Mr. Darcy improves on acquaintance.”

“Indeed!” cried Wickham, with a look which did not escape her. “And pray may I ask—” but checking himself, he added, in a gayer tone, “Is it in address that he improves? Has he deigned to add aught of civility to his ordinary style? for I dare not hope,” he continued, in a lower and more serious tone, “that he is improved in essentials.”

“Oh, no!” said Elizabeth. “In essentials, I believe, he is very much what he ever was.”

While she spoke, Wickham looked as if scarcely knowing whether to rejoice over her words or to distrust their meaning. There was a something in her countenance which made him listen with an apprehensive and anxious attention, while she added,—

“When I said that he improved on acquaintance, I did not mean that either his mind or manners were in a state of improvement; but that, from knowing him better, his disposition was better understood.”

Wickham’s alarm now appeared in a heightened complexion and agitated look; for a few minutes he was silent; till, shaking off his embarrassment, he turned to her again, and said in the gentlest of accents,—

“You, who so well know my feelings towards Mr. Darcy, will readily comprehend how sincerely I must rejoice that he is wise enough to assume even the appearance of what is right. His pride, in that direction, may be of service, if not to himself, to many others, for it must deter him from such foul misconduct as I have suffered by. I only fear that the sort of cautiousness to which you, I imagine, have been alluding, is merely adopted on his visits to his aunt, of whose good opinion and judgment he stands much in awe. His fear of her has always operated, I know, when they were together; and a good deal is to be imputed to his wish of forwarding the match with Miss de Bourgh, which I am certain he has very much at heart.”

Elizabeth could not repress a smile at this, but she answered only by a slight inclination of the head. She saw that he wanted to engage her on the old subject of his grievances, and she was in no humour to indulge him. The rest of the evening passed with the appearance, on his side, of usual cheerfulness, but with no further attempt to distinguish Elizabeth; and they parted at last with mutual civility, and possibly a mutual desire of never meeting again.

When the party broke up, Lydia returned with Mrs. Forster to Meryton, from whence they were to set out early the next morning. The separation between her and her family was rather noisy than pathetic. Kitty was the only one who shed tears; but she did weep from vexation and envy. Mrs. Bennet was diffuse in her good wishes for the felicity of her daughter, and impressive in her injunctions that she would not miss the opportunity of enjoying herself as much as possible,—advice which there was every reason to believe would be attended to; and, in the clamorous happiness of Lydia herself in bidding farewell, the more gentle adieus of her sisters were uttered without being heard.

中文翻译(全文)

她们回来后的第一个星期转眼就过去了,第二个星期又开始了。这是民兵团驻扎麦里屯的最后一个星期,附近的年轻小姐们一个个都蔫了下去。那份愁闷几乎人人有份。唯独年长的两位班纳特小姐还吃得下、睡得着,照旧做她们每日的事。基蒂和莉迪亚时常责怪她们这样无动于衷——她们自己痛苦到了极点,实在想不通家里竟有人这般硬心肠。

“天哪!我们往后可怎么办?我们该怎么办呀?”她们常常在极度的悲伤中这样喊。“莉齐,你怎么还能笑得出来?”

她们慈爱的母亲与她们同悲;她记得二十五年前,在同样的情况下,她自己是怎么熬过来的。

“我敢说,”她说,“米勒上校的民兵团开走的时候,我整整哭了两天。我以为我的心都要碎了。”

“我敢说我的心真要碎了。”莉迪亚说。

“要是能去布赖顿就好了!”班纳特太太说。

“啊,是呀!——要是能去布赖顿就好了!可爸爸就是这么讨人厌。”

“稍微洗几回海水浴,就能叫我受用一辈子。”

“菲利普斯姨妈也一口咬定,那对我大有好处。”基蒂补了一句。

诸如此类的哀叹,在朗伯恩的宅子里终日回荡。伊丽莎白想拿它们当消遣,可一想到其中的羞耻,什么乐趣都没了。她重新感到达西先生的反对确有道理;她也从未像如今这样,愿意原谅他插手他朋友的事。

可是莉迪亚前途上的阴云不久就散去了:她接到福斯特太太的邀请,随她一同去布赖顿。福斯特太太是民兵团团长的妻子。这位不可多得的朋友非常年轻,新近才出嫁。两人性情相投,都是好脾气、活泼快活,因此彼此看对了眼;她们认识才三个月,倒有两个月已经亲密无间了。

莉迪亚此时的狂喜、她对福斯特太太的崇拜、班纳特太太的高兴、基蒂的难堪,都几乎无法形容。莉迪亚全然不顾姐妹的心情,满屋子飞来飞去,喜得坐立不安,逢人便讨恭喜,笑声和话语比以往更加放肆;而倒霉的基蒂仍旧坐在客厅里怨命,说出来的话既没道理,腔调又尖酸。

“我不明白福斯特太太为什么请莉迪亚却不请我,”她说,“虽然我不是她特别要好的朋友。论该请不该请,我跟她一样有份,而且更有份,我比她大两岁呢。”

伊丽莎白想劝她讲理,简想劝她认命,都是白费力气。至于伊丽莎白自己,这封邀请非但没有在她心里引起母亲和莉迪亚那样的情绪,反而让她认定:对莉迪亚来说,这等于判了她那点常识的死刑;而且她知道,这样的举动一旦传出去,自己必定招人厌恶,可她还是忍不住私下劝父亲别放她去。她向父亲陈说莉迪亚平日种种失当之处,说她结交福斯特太太这样的人实在得不偿失,又说她到了布赖顿,有这样一个同伴,只会越发不知检点,因为那里的诱惑必定比家里更大。父亲仔细听她说完,然后说道:——

“莉迪亚不闹到在什么公共场所出点丑,是不会安分的;而我们要指望她出丑时让家里少花钱、少受累,恐怕再没有比眼下更便宜的机会了。”

“要是你知道,”伊丽莎白说,“莉迪亚这般无所顾忌、不知轻重的作风一旦招来外人的注目,会给我们大家带来多大的不利——不,是已经带来了——我相信你对这件事就会另有看法了。”

“已经带来了!”班纳特先生重复道。“怎么!她把你几个追求者吓跑了?可怜的小莉齐!可你别灰心。连一点荒唐事都受不了、非要躲开的年轻人,这种过分挑剔的小子不值得你惋惜。来,让我看看这份名单,都是哪些可怜虫因为莉迪亚的胡闹不敢近前。”

“不,你误会了。我并没有什么这样的委屈要抱怨。我抱怨的不是我个人的不幸,而是大家都遭殃的祸患。莉迪亚性格里那种轻狂浮躁、胆大妄为、无视一切约束的劲头,一定会影响到我们在世上的地位和体面。请你原谅——我非得把话说白不可。亲爱的父亲,要是你不肯费心压一压她那股过旺的兴致,不肯教导她明白,她眼前这些追逐算不得她一辈子的正事,那她很快就要到无法挽回的地步了。她的性格一旦定型,到了十六岁,她就会成为天下最不可救药的卖弄风情的人,让自己和全家都成了笑柄;而且是最下等、最卑贱的那种卖弄风情;除了年轻和一张还过得去的脸,她再没有别的可取之处;她又无知又空虚,根本抵挡不住她那种一心要人捧的作派必然招来的普遍的轻蔑。这种危险也牵连着基蒂。莉迪亚往哪儿走,她就跟到哪儿。虚荣、无知、懒惰,完全不受管束!哦,亲爱的父亲,你难道以为,她们无论走到哪里,人家知道了会不指责、不轻视她们吗?她们的姐妹不会常常被牵连着丢脸吗?”

班纳特先生看出她整颗心都在这件事上,便慈爱地拉起她的手,回答道:——

“别自己心烦,我的宝贝。凡认识你和简的人,都会敬重你们、看重你们;就算有两三个——或者我该说,三个——很傻的妹妹,也不会叫你们减色。莉迪亚要是去不成布赖顿,我们在朗伯恩就别想有太平日子。那就让她去吧。福斯特上校是个明白人,不会让她真闹出什么乱子;幸而她太穷,不会有人打她的主意。到了布赖顿,她即便只做个寻常的卖弄风情的人,也比在这里更无足轻重。军官们自会找到更值得他们注意的女人。所以我们不妨指望,她到了那里,或许能明白自己有多不重要。无论如何,她再坏也坏不到哪里去;真要是再坏下去,我们就有理由把她关起来,关她一辈子。”

得到这样的答复,伊丽莎白也只好作罢;但她自己的看法依旧不变,离开父亲时既失望又难过。不过,她天性不会老想着烦恼,把烦恼越想越多。她确信自己已经尽了本分;为无法避免的坏事发愁,或者凭焦虑把它放大,可不是她的性情。

莉迪亚和她母亲要是知道她与父亲这番谈话的内容,凭她们母女俩加在一起的那份口才,怕也难以尽情发泄她们的愤慨。在莉迪亚的想象里,去一趟布赖顿,就包含了人间幸福的全部可能。她凭着幻想那种能凭空造物的眼睛,看见那欢闹的海滨浴场街上到处是军官。她看见自己成了几十个、上百个素不相识的军官注目的中心。她看见了军营的全部荣光:帐篷排成整齐美观的一列列,挤满了年轻快活的人,红制服耀人眼目;而为了把这一幅景致补全,她还看见自己坐在一顶帐篷下面,同时跟至少六个军官温柔地调情。

“温柔地调情”

[版权所有 1894 年,乔治·艾伦。]

她要是知道姐姐正想把她从这样的前景、这样的实景中拉开,她会作何感想?这种感想只有她母亲能够体会,因为母亲大概也有同感。莉迪亚能去布赖顿,是唯一能安慰她的事——她早就凄凉地认定,丈夫自己是绝不会去的。

可她们对这一切全然不知;她们的狂喜几乎一刻不停,一直延续到莉迪亚离家的那一天。

伊丽莎白现在要最后一次见到威克姆先生了。她回来以后常与他见面,那份激动已经差不多平复了;先前出于偏爱的激动更是完全没有了。她甚至学会了在他最初令她欢喜的那种温柔里,辨出几分做作和千篇一律,只觉得厌烦。而且,他眼下对她的态度,又给了她一个新的不快之源:他不久就露出意思,要重施他们初识时那套殷勤,而在经历了后来这些事之后,这只能惹她生气。她发觉自己被挑来充当这种无聊轻浮的殷勤的对象,便对他再无一点关心;她一面稳稳地压住这股殷勤,一面又不由得感到,他这番心思里含着一种责备——他竟以为,不管他的殷勤中断了多久、为了什么缘故中断,只要他重新献上,她的虚荣心随时都会得到满足,她的偏爱随时都能被他牢牢抓住。

民兵团留在麦里屯的最后一天,他同另外几位军官在朗伯恩吃饭。伊丽莎白实在没有心思和他好声好气地分别,所以当他问起她在汉斯福德过得怎样时,她就提到菲茨威廉上校和达西先生都在罗新斯待了三个星期,还问他认不认识那位上校。

他显得惊讶、不快、惊慌;但定了定神,脸上又浮起笑容,回答说,他从前常常见到他;又说那是一位很有绅士风度的人,随后问她觉得他怎么样。她热切地替上校说好话。他摆出一副不在意的神气,过了一会儿才问:“你刚才说他在罗新斯待了多久?”

“将近三个星期。”

“你常常见到他?”

“是的,几乎天天见。”

“他的举止跟他表弟大不相同。”

“是的,大不相同;不过我觉得达西先生是越认识越好的。”

“真的!”威克姆叫道,他脸上那副神色没有逃过她的眼睛。“那么请问——”但他按住了自己,换了个更轻快的腔调说,“他是在待人接物上长进了?他屈尊在他平常的派头里添了几分礼貌?因为我可不敢指望,”他放低声音,用更严肃的口气接着说,“他在根本方面有什么长进。”

“哦,不是!”伊丽莎白说。“在根本方面,我相信他还是老样子,没有两样。”

她说这话时,威克姆的神情像是拿不准该为她的话高兴,还是该疑心她话里有话。她脸上有种什么东西,使他怀着戒惧而又焦急的心情听着;这时她又说:——

“我说他越认识越好,并不是说他的见识或举止正在改进;而是说,认识他久了,他的性情也就更容易看明白了。”

威克姆这时脸色涨红,神情激动,显然慌了;他沉默了几分钟,才摆脱窘态,又转向她,用最柔和的声调说:——

“你这样清楚我对达西先生的心情,自然不难明白,我听说他总算聪明到肯做出一副正经样子来,该有多么真心实意地高兴。他那一份傲气,在这方面也许有用——即便对他自己无用,对许多人也是有用的;因为那总会拦着他,不让他干出我受过的那种卑鄙勾当。我只是担心,你方才所指的那种谨慎,恐怕只是他去看姨妈时才装出来的;他对姨妈的意见和判断,向来怕得很。我知道,他们在一起的时候,他总是受着这种畏惧的支配;再者,许多事还得归到他巴望促成与德·包尔小姐的婚事上去——我敢肯定,这门亲事他是极放在心上的。”

伊丽莎白听到这里忍不住笑了,但只是微微点了点头作答。她看出他想把她引回到他那套旧日冤屈上去,而她全无兴致去迁就他。那天晚上剩下的时间里,他表面上照旧快活,却不再设法对伊丽莎白表示殷勤;最后两人客客气气地分了手,说不定彼此都希望再也不要见面。

客人散去以后,莉迪亚随福斯特太太回了麦里屯,她们打算第二天一早从那里出发。她与家人分别,与其说是伤感,不如说是吵闹。只有基蒂一个人掉了眼泪;可她那眼泪是出于烦恼和嫉妒。班纳特太太絮絮叨叨地祝女儿幸福,又郑重其事地叮嘱她千万别错过尽情享乐的机会——这劝告有充分理由相信一定会被照办;而在莉迪亚自己那吵吵嚷嚷的道别声里,几位姐姐比较轻柔的告别话说了出去,却没有人听见。

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